First i'd like to thanx a lot *Janoo-bachaa for his generosity!
He offered me to make a journal entry to support me in these hard times.
Thank you dear sooooo much




Here's a summary. Nothing too bad in fact, sometimes i think how can i be complaining while people are dying?
But sometimes when you are in the middle of several issues you can't center your mind on another topic.

Well you probably know that i have a certain sickness, nothing too bad again, bipolarity III or I/II (have both identifications it depends on which country you live), the lowest level of this sickness, so nothing really bad.

This causes me after a long two years of depression to be without job, then 5 weeks ago i went back to my job, the same, but i could not support it, went back on illness at home then went back to job as a part-time job.
Sometimes i can go to work sometimes i must still at home without being paid of course.
Now with a part-time job i earn about 500€/$ a month while i have about 1100€/$ bills to pay.

To end march i have only in my pocket 4€/$ to eat.

And i've debts with my bank, well all the same debts when you began to fall down. I owe 2 monthes of rent, i can't pay and next month i'll not pay half of my bills.
I heat myself thanx to candles, and the coldness is back in France, we even had snow. It's not really hot in my lil flat.

Next month it will be the same, the only solution is to find a new fulltime job. But i'll be paid on the end of the next month (in France we are paid monthly).

So i'm going to see the social services to get Food parcels.
What a shame, i'm tired but i need to eat, this week i've lost 3 kilos, well lol i'm fat so in a sense it's a great thing...
But i began to faint i'm afraid i can't keep going on like that for weeks.

So if you don't see me it must be because i've not paid my internet bill, the payment will have been rejected by the bank.